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Cctv news(Yu Xiaodan, brother Chen Chen, Li Shanshan): Zongzi is sweet and salty, and the college entrance examination is year after year. Remember that year, that heroic self? Remember the parents, teachers and "comrades-in-arms" who accompanied you all the way through the customs?
Inside the examination room, it is a person’s charge, while outside the examination room, it is a family’s protracted war. Even though the choices of educational paths are becoming more and more diverse, the phrase "the college entrance examination changes fate" still deeply affects "ordinary people in ordinary families". And it changes not only a person’s life.
Eleven years ago, it also coincided with the Dragon Boat Festival.
Xu Fei is 29 years old and took the college entrance examination in 2008.
The day before the college entrance examination, the class organized the final mobilization meeting. The class teacher in his 40 s brought 58 sweet zongzi wrapped by himself and walked to the classmate’s seat, handing them out one by one. Other teachers bring colorful threads and personally put them on each student … … "At that time, many students cried, and the last time I met many of them, I only stayed in the summer of 2008."
Eleven years ago, the national college entrance examination also coincided with the Dragon Boat Festival.
That year, the mother of 17-year-old Northeast girl Xu Fei accompanied her for more than 300 days.
Return to high school campus
In high school, Xu Fei has been living in a dormitory. In the third year of my senior year, I begged my mother to come and accompany me in order to sprint my grades again. "The college entrance examination is bigger than the sky." After the family meeting, my mother shut down the small business at home, rented a two-bedroom apartment near the school, and began to accompany her as a nanny. At that time, my mother met Xu Fei at the school gate at 9 o’clock every night, rain or shine, and then they laughed and went home all the way.
The relationship between the two mothers and daughters is a bit delicate. Walking hand in hand in the street is like a pair of sister flowers. When introducing her mother, Xu Fei said the most: "My mother looks better than me!" " But sometimes Xu Fei doesn’t quite understand her mother. "My mother loves to wear high heels, and she is afraid of disturbing my lunch break when accompanying me, but she doesn’t change a pair of flat shoes, but wraps the heels with cloth."
Xu Fei has been suffering from dysmenorrhea. My mother heard a folk prescription somewhere, saying that eating black fungus can delay the physiological period. One week before the college entrance examination, three meals a day were inseparable from auricularia, so that now she feels sick at the sight of auricularia.
Xu Fei is in the key class of liberal arts in the school. According to the planning advice given to her by the teacher, she should give full play to the universities that can be stable in second-tier cities and give full play to the universities that may sprint to first-tier cities.
Prepare for the English exam after work
"I’m really afraid of what comes." Math was taken on the afternoon of the first day of the college entrance examination — — Her worst subject, dysmenorrhea, lasted all afternoon. If the performance is poor, the extraordinary performance will become a bubble. Math scores also hit a new low in previous model tests.
Heilongjiang uses a national two-volume exam, and after the exam, you should fill in your volunteers according to the evaluation score. After careful analysis with her mother, Xu Fei reported to Heilongjiang University. "My favorite editing and publishing major is only one in the province, and it is safe to report it to the black." The results of the college entrance examination were announced, with 568 points — — And the difference between a line in Nevenko and the province is one point!
Mom doesn’t want to accompany her anymore, and she is firmly opposed to Xu Fei’s re-reading. "Maybe I think my grades should be at this level." After she went to college, she began to plan her daughter’s "counterattack" — — Graduate students go abroad for further study, and their work is set in Beishangguang.
After that, Xu Fei went to study in Britain. After returning to China, he first settled in Beijing and then settled in Shanghai.
Study in the UK
"The class teacher said that the college entrance examination is not the only way to change your destiny, but it is a shortcut. In my life after the college entrance examination, this sentence has been confirmed by various facts. " Without a prestigious undergraduate school, Xu Fei needs to walk faster and have a clearer goal at every important intersection such as graduate application and employment.
Zhejiang University is Zhu Shazhi in Xu Fei’s chest and Bai Yueguang in his heart. Just a few trips to Hangzhou on business, and I didn’t make up my mind to visit. It took her nearly 10 years to let go of the regret in the college entrance examination: "If I can go back to the past and start over, I should plan my life earlier."
Feeling with CCTV reporters that year, Xu Fei is now much more rational: "The results of the college entrance examination are not ideal, but in fact, the strength reserve is not enough, not all ‘ Aunt ’ The pot. "
A photo of Xu Fei and his mother at Disney.
In the past two years, with excellent work and good income, young women in small towns have finally spelled out their sense of security in the magic capital.
In the Spring Festival of 2018, Xu Fei did not return to her hometown, but took her mother to travel abroad. This is the first time that the mother and daughter traveled alone. "Taiwan Province, Thailand, Singapore, I asked her to choose, and she finally chose Thailand." I went to Bangkok and Krabi in five days, and then I went to Shanghai Disneyland after returning to China. My mother basked in the circle of friends and basked in delicious food … … Mom is as excited as a child.
"I used to be used to her to arrange everything. I made the strategy and itinerary this time. She doesn’t know a foreign language, just like a child. " Xu Fei found that her mother, who was always ahead, began to hide behind and needed to rely on.
Teacher, is that the sea beyond the mountain?
Wendong is 25 years old and took the college entrance examination in 2013.
"My parents have been living in the countryside. Although they haven’t read too many books, their simplest dream is to send their children out of the mountains. In their opinion, the best way to change this life is to study hard."
Eighteen kilometers along the Wujiang River, the mountain is high and the water depth is deep. The entrance examination road in Wendong is much longer than the children in the city.
His hometown is the farthest and most partial town in Fenggang County, Guizhou Province — — Tianqiao town When he was in junior high school, Wendong had to climb several mountains and walk the mountain road for more than 2 hours to go to school in the town. "I’m used to it, but I actually feel quite fast."
After high school, I only go home once every six months, or on holidays. "From home to school, it is 88 kilometers in total, and the round-trip fare is almost the same as that of 240 yuan. This money is equivalent to one month’s living expenses, and you can save a lot of money by going back once."
Every time he goes back to school, Wendong’s mother prepares 12 boiled eggs for him before he leaves.
Wendong, who came to "the city" for the first time, didn’t do well at that time. After he scored arts and sciences in the second year of high school, he could rank in the top twenty or thirty in the whole grade, but by the third year of high school, his grades were basically in the top ten. In his words, the counterattack was successful.
In the third year of high school, the tense atmosphere was highlighted. There was a buzz of endorsement in the corridor, and some people just skipped dinner and took books to the playground to recite. Others rented a house at the school gate, and their parents came to accompany them.
At that time, a "camphor tree" became his most loyal companion in high school. He will sit on the flower bed under the tree and read, recite words, write down the key points of the comprehensive examination, and when he meets math problems that he can’t, he will stay under the tree and think, "Although this tree can’t talk, it has become a companion."
As the college entrance examination approaches, there are more and more simulated tests. In the previous tests, Wen Dong got worse every time. "The exam is too torturous."
Mom’s support is silent. "At that time, my mother insisted on visiting me in the city by car every week. She was more prone to carsickness. It was not easy for her to travel for more than two hours, but she persisted for two months."
After being confused and reorganizing his mentality, Wendong gradually cured the "pre-test syndrome". Pasturing sheep, chopping wood, weeding, breaking corn and plowing … … After studying, Wendong’s relaxation way is to listen to insects singing and birds singing in the mountains, do farm work with his parents and put himself in nature.
"Help each other in the same boat, strive for self-improvement, and like Tongji University." Wendong got what he wanted. The cost of going to college in Shanghai was funded by a caring uncle. "My uncle not only helped me financially, but also taught me a lot about life."
There are three children in the family, two sisters and him, but Wendong’s parents have not given up any of them. "The educational resources enjoyed by rural children are relatively lacking, and the significance of the college entrance examination is even different."
The college entrance examination opens another life for him.
"Teacher, isn’t Shanghai very prosperous? Is that the sea beyond the mountain? "
In 2017, as a volunteer of the National Western Plan, Wendong went to Dali, Yunnan Province to carry out a one-year volunteer activity. In the process of teaching in Tuanjie Township, Yunlong County, Dali, Yunnan Province, he went deep into the homes of poor children in remote mountainous areas, and encouraged them to "plant the seeds of their dreams" with their own practical growth insights.
After the college entrance examination, there is only peace.
Xing Jie is 23 years old and took the college entrance examination in 2015.
I thought I would cry after the college entrance examination, but I didn’t. After the college entrance examination, I was only calm, very, very calm.
Recall the college entrance examination four years ago, 313 days and nights, endless comprehensive papers, endless math problems, unsatisfied wrong books, 15-16 hours of study every day, and crazy exams … … Xing Jie said, "I don’t think there will be another year like this in my life, painful and happy!" "
This year, Xing Jie could have chosen not to start again.
In the first year of college entrance examination, she scored 608 points in Henan and was admitted to a key university in 985 and 211. But she always remembers what the teacher said to her at the summer camp in the second year of junior high school: "You must work hard at Tsinghua Peking University". After the college entrance examination in the first year, she went to Peking University again, and met her senior sister, who had kept in touch with her before, and her determination to repeat her studies was even stronger.
There is no guarantee that she will win this gambling. "At that time, an elder told me that girls should not repeat. He had never seen any girl repeat more than 50 points a year."
On the day of making the final decision, Xing Jie didn’t sleep all night. "My parents didn’t sleep either. They basically took all the pressure from my elders for me. If I want to repeat, they are willing to support me unconditionally."
After leaving her alma mater, Xing Jie went to live in a campus far from the city. At 5:50 in the morning, the alarm clock will be on time. At 6 o’clock, the dormitory will light up, get up, fold the quilt and wash. After breakfast quickly, I hurried to the classroom and started reading at 6: 30. "Teacher Zhang Chunlei, the head teacher, has usually stood at the door of the class or on the podium. Seeing him smile at me, the only remaining sleepiness is gone. "
Reading aloud for half an hour, the bell rang at 7 o’clock and everyone stood up. The whole floor was read aloud. "When I first heard it, it was very shocking."
The bottleneck period came in the winter of that year. "At that time, everyone’s review progress basically came up, and some freshmen would do better than me, which was quite a blow, not to say envy, but to feel powerless."
An old public telephone in the dormitory was the only way for Xing Jie to keep in touch with her parents and friends at that time. "Some friends will still call me even if they are already in college, talk to me about the recent situation and explain me."
Once she didn’t do well in the exam, Xing Jie complained to her parents, "Mom may have a stupid mouth at that time and didn’t know what to say. After a while, she may have thought it over. She called me and told me very seriously that I was the best in her heart. I have always trusted her baby daughter since I was born."
In the big night, "Mom also rode an electric car for half an hour and bought something I like to eat, including the milk tea I casually told her. People her age don’t buy these, they buy them specially for me. When I saw her enter the door, my tears were about to fall. I felt that only my mother would ride an electric car so far to come to me. "
There were too many unforgettable things that winter. Because of hard work for a long time, the results have not improved, and Xing Jie began to stay up late with a depressed mood. I don’t rest until one o’clock in the morning every night, sleep for more than four hours a day, and when I write a diary, my hands are shaking. But when the final exam results came out, there were still more than forty students in grade.
I haven’t talked much for a few days, and my mouth is full of bitter taste. Teacher Zhang Chunlei said to her, "Don’t be depressed now. I am not discouraged, so don’t be discouraged! " In Xing Jie’s memory, a straightforward and hearty, heroic atmosphere, and not afraid of anything, the surface is full of warmth. "He will hold my hand, gently approve me to go home when my eyes are uncomfortable, stand behind me and rub my shoulder after a series of exams, and" blame "me for not being considerate enough when I care about my father, and say nothing to me with a smile … …”
In April, the weather turned hot. Because the school is far from the city center, it won’t come to hot water to wash its hair until after midnight. Xing Jie decided to go home to review. "My parents waited for me at the gate of the campus. I didn’t go home until I studied by myself at 10 o’clock in the evening, and then I was sent back to school at about 6 o’clock the next morning. During that time, my father didn’t even drink."
After the weather gets warmer, my mood seems to be better. "At that time, a person will silently endure, and then the whole mood will become quieter and less anxious."
I have read the basic knowledge of the first round of chemistry at least three times; There are four books in three compulsory courses and one elective course in biology, which have been recited back and forth for more than five times, and some important parts, such as experiments, have been recited more; Chinese classical Chinese, every time you pass the big exam and recite it for 20 times, you don’t have to read it again; English has memorized countless words and phrases. After commenting on a paper, there are many red marks.
There are 300 wrong problems in mathematics; Biochemistry is a whole book of error-prone knowledge points and wrong questions; Draw knowledge block diagram and knowledge tree in physics chapters; Countdown to 50 days, 45 sets of mathematics were carefully written, and I took time out to practice five big physics questions every day and wrote 200+.
That year, "make plans every day, run on time, write reflections every week, and write a summary in the big exam."
"At the beginning, I was a little girl who was dependent on others and couldn’t stand loneliness. She was fragile and sensitive. When she encountered problems, she always doubted herself carefully. Because of some small things, she called her mother and cried for an hour." When her name appeared in the first line of the list, she sat in the first position of the examination room. "It seems that all the previous efforts were worth it."
"My parents didn’t accompany me to the exam. They felt that waiting for me outside would give me pressure." Before entering the examination room, "Teacher Zhang Chunlei told me that he would wait for me there. At that moment, there was an impulse to cry, but I knew I couldn’t. "
“语文写了篇中规中矩的作文，但貌似分数还不错。数学最后十分钟涂卡的时候，发现一道选择题写错了，五分。考完数学出来，张春雷老师站在路边，盯着我看，直到我轻轻上扬嘴角，他才如释重负地笑了。”
“英语考试结束，全体起立，我撕掉了桌角的纸条，这是最后的纪念。”
643分，没有去北大，“但我不后悔，如果要是没努力，我之后非常多的夜晚可能都会辗转反侧。我没有辜负自己，没有辜负所有在背后看着我的眼睛，我想我赢了。”
如今，邢婕保研到了自己喜欢的同济上海国际知识产权学院。这4年里，她去美国、法国、新加坡做游学交流，还学了法语，听很多名师的讲座，去了很多地方。
“我是一个小城里的姑娘，之前对未来没有太大期待，后来发生的每一件事情对我来说都是惊喜，我就是那个被知识改变了命运的人。高考让我找到了自己心中真正想要做的事，找到了自我。”
一场考试，几张试卷，多样人生，一个家庭的过去和未来。曾几何时，多少人以为高考结束，就可以解放了，而考过的人才明白，解放的意义在于，别人为自己铺的路走完了，该亲手铺路向前了。
（文中许菲为化名）
